My Husband Isn’t a Believer

Let me preface this post by saying – I have not been in this position.  It would be a very difficult position to be in as a wife.  And I greatly admire the many wives who are respectful to their unbelieving husbands and who cooperate with their leadership as they pray for their husbands’ salvation.  It requires a VERY strong faith to do this.  Sometimes the rewards aren’t seen until heaven in these situations.

If you are in this position, or you have been the wife of an unbelieving husband and you would like to share how God used your obedience to Scripture to heal your marriage and bring your husband closer to Christ – please leave a comment to encourage the wives who are still struggling.  Thank you so much!


There were times before God changed my heart so dramatically when I doubted my husband’s salvation.  I scrutinized him and criticized his spirituality – I am ashamed to say now.  I would point my finger at his failures and his habits and think so self-righteously that I was much more spiritual and godly than he was.  I did NOT obey I Peter 3 and I did NOT see my husband grow closer to God and closer to me until I finally DID obey this passage.

Sadly, I think that my husband probably had many more reasons to doubt MY salvation than I found to doubt his.  My husband was patient – I was not.  He was very forgiving – I held grudges for years.  My husband was humble – I was prideful beyond belief.  And I was disobedient to a lot of scripture.  So – I am sure my husband should have doubted my salvation.   I didn’t have the fruit of the Spirit.  I was constantly worried, afraid, overwhelmed, anxious, critical and judgmental.  I didn’t have much faith.  I was a very immature believer.  I believe I was saved – but there were so many areas where Christ was NOT Lord of my life.  I did not have the power of the Holy Spirit full blast – my sin had blocked it to a thin trickle.  And I didn’t see it at all.  Everything was “normal” to me.

So – only God knows each person’s heart.  And we are all wretched sinners in DESPERATE need of the blood of Christ to wash away our sins.


I Peter 3:1-6  is God’s prescription for you!  This needs to be your central focus for as long as it takes, in my view

Wives, in the same way (as believers submit to government and believing slaves submit to masters) be submissive to your husbands so that, if any of them do not believe the Word, they may be won over without words by the behavior of their wives, when they see the purity and reverence of your lives.  Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.  Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet (peaceful) spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.  For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful.  They were submissive to their own husbands, like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master.  You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear.


God knows that words are for women, not men.  Men are not won over by words.  Men need to see real authentic faith in their wives.  They need to see a cooperative wife, one who doesn’t argue all the time, one who doesn’t preach and nag and lecture at him.  They need to see the fruit of the Spirit (Galatians 5:22) in their wives over an extended period of time.  These are the ONLY ways a believing wife can influence her husband for God.

A wife who is willing to

  • respect her husband’s God-given authority (he is still the leader and authority in the marriage, even if he isn’t a Christian)
  • only resist him (but still with great respect) if he asks her to sin
  • have faith in her man as a leader
  • cooperate with his leadership decisions
  • be silent about the things of God
  • have a gentle and peaceful spirit that does not give way to fear

puts her husband in the direct line of God’s intervention.  He will be in the closest possible position to hear God’s voice and he will be the most receptive to God’s Spirit.

We as women DO NOT like this passage!  We don’t like being quiet.  We want to talk and talk about God, the Bible, what the pastor preached about on Sunday – we want to win our husbands over with words.  Words don’t work on men like they do for women.  Plus, all those words are likely to come across with arrogance and pride, that we are saying we are so much more godly than our men are.  That is a huge reason I believe God said for us not to use words to win our husbands over – it doesn’t work!  Our words push them farther away from us and farther away from Christ.

If your husband refuses to live with you – please refer to I Corinthians 7:10-17

To the married I give this command (not I , but the Lord):  A wife must not separate from her husband.  But if she does, she must remain unmarried or else be reconciled to her husband.  And a husband must not divorce his wife.  To the rest I say this (I, not the Lord):  If any brother has a wife who is not a believer and she is willing to live with him, he must not divorce her.  And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him.  For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife, and the unbelieving wife has been sanctified through her husband.  Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy.  But if the unbeliever leaves, let him do so.  A believing man or woman is not bound in such circumstances; God has called us to live in peace.  How do you know, wife, whether you will safe your husband?  Or how do you know, husband, whether you will safe your wife?  Nevertheless, each one should retain the place in life that the Lord assigned to him and to which God has called him.

The closer your husband is to God, the more he can hear your words.  The farther your husband is from God, the more your words will repel him even further away.


I believe that a wife in this position will have to be EXTREMELY careful to be HUMBLE.  And I believe a wife in this position will need to wrestle with and come to accept the idea that God is big enough to lead her through an unbelieving husband.  Even though he is not Spirit filled – God is still sovereign over his life.  And God plans to use him to lead you and speak to you.  Our God is THAT powerful!

There is a great chapter about this in Gary Thomas’ “Sacred Influence” about a wife who has been married to an unbeliever for 20 years.  She used to preach at him and lecture him and try to MAKE him accept Christ – and he didn’t budge at all.  Then she accepted God’s commands for her as a wife to respect and submit and to win him without a word.  And as of the time of the writing of the book, he was still not a believer.  BUT, she had peace.  And she told many stories of how God would mold and shape her character by speaking through her husband about her bad attitudes, her impatience, her tone of voice, etc.


This is not a journey we would choose to go on.  And I pray that young Christian single women would understand how critical it is to marry a growing believer in Christ who wants to live with Christ as LORD on a daily basis.

BUT, God does give victory on many levels in a marriage where a wife obeys Him.  AND, this is your ONLY shot at helping your husband find Christ.  If you refuse to obey God’s word here – you are going to make it EXTREMELY DIFFICULT for your husband to accept Christ – EVER.

Ultimately, you cannot control your husband.  He has to decide for Christ himself.  BUT, you can make Christianity appealing by obeying God’s Word and being willing to lay down your desires and your wisdom and seeking God’s will and obeying Him in all things.


Think about things your husband has asked of you that you have been refusing to do?

  • Go to the church he prefers (if it is a cult that does not teach Jesus is the only way to God through faith – a gift from God that cannot be earned, then you must gently but firmly and respectfully resist him.  But otherwise, you go where HE wants to go – cheerfully and without complaining.)
  • not go to so many Bible studies during the week
  • not criticize him so much
  • not complain and whine about things he wants you to do
  • spend more time with him
  • give the amount of tithe/donations to church he wants to give (And if he is upset about giving money to charities or a church, that is his call to make.  God doesn’t need you to go against your husband to give to His work.  God might decide to use us – but He doesn’t  NEED us.  He desires our obedience more than $100/week or whatever dollar amount it is we want to give.  AND – God is able to change our husbands’ hearts and create in them a desire to give to His work.  So we pray and trust God and wait.  Joyfully.)
  • support his parenting
  • not withhold your body from him sexually (it is a sin against God and our husbands when we do this – unless he is being unfaithful or you have some serious medical issues going on)

I don’t know what your particular husband has been asking you to do.

But you have a LOT of power here when you obey God and are filled with His Spirit.  And you can expect miracles to happen.  We serve a MIGHTY God!  He is sovereign over our marriages and our husbands.  We can trust that when He gives us commands, He knows what He is doing and we will be greatly blessed when we obey.


Please choose GODLY friends who will:

  • support your husband’s leadership
  • respect your husband and help point you towards respecting your husband
  • pray with you and for you for yourself and your husband and children
  • set a godly example of biblical submission and respect
  • NOT run down your husband or encourage a spirit of discontentment and disrespect in you!


In my view, some of the BIGGEST temptations for a Christian wife whose husband is not a believer or is far from God will be:

  • discontentment  with your current lot in life, wishing things were different.  Imagining being with another man or imagining divorcing your husband.
  • resenting your husband for not accepting Christ
  • envying wives who have believing husbands
  • respect for godly men and leaders in the church that could easily turn into infatuation or romantic feelings
  • wanting to disobey I Peter 3 and try to use WORDS to tell your man about God and tell him what to do


My husband was a non-believer for 20 years. When we married I had fallen away from God as I was saved as a young child. After having my own children, I came back to God and recommitted my life to Jesus. My faith had become stronger than ever. This was really difficult because my husband was still not a believer.

There are four main suggestions that I have;

1) Respect your husband even if you don’t think he deserves it. This can easily start by finding a simple thing he’s done around the house and praising him for it. Keep finding more and more things to praise him for and to tell him you’re proud of him for. Doing this will make him want to show love in return and will make him more open to God and church.

2) Lead by example; don’t nag, push, preach, or get angry. Have a gentle and quiet spirit living your life for God. It may take years of doing this as it did in my case but it works. Stick to it an don’t give up. This really worked with my husband. He will see Jesus through you. My husband saw the supernatural elements of my life and it opened his eyes.

3) Find a church where your husband will feel like he fits in even if it means moving your children from a youth environment that they like. It WILL be worth it in the end. My husband never felt that was good enough for church until we found a contemporary church that embraced him without the self-righteousness. It just clicked.

4) pray fervently for your husband’s salvation daily.

 My husband was saved about 3 years ago and his faith grows more and more every week.

 Fight the good fight. Finish the race. Keep the faith.


A biblical method of increasing our respect for our husbands as we pray

A wife profoundly impacts her husband’s ability to grow spiritually

conflict resolution by Rev. Harold Weaver

When is it ok to disrespect my husband?

When a wife strongly disagrees with her husband

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37 Comments on “My Husband Isn’t a Believer”

  1. mamanellie
    August 6, 2012 at 3:57 pm #

    My husband was a non-believer for 20 years. When we married I had fallen away from God as I was saved as a young child. After having my own children, I came back to God and recommitted my life to Jesus. My faith had become stronger than ever. This was really difficult because my husband was still not a believer. There are three main suggestions that I have; 1) Respect your husband even if you don’t think he deserves it. This can easily start by finding a simple thing he’s done around the house and praising him for it. Keep finding more and more things to praise him for and to tell him you’re proud of him for. Doing this will make him want to show love in return and will make him more open to God and church. 2) Lead by example; don’t nag, push, preach, or get angry. Have a gentle and quiet spirit living your life for God. It may take years of doing this as it did in my case but it works. Stick to it an don’t give up. This really worked with my husband. He will see Jesus through you. My husband saw the supernatural elements of my life and it opened his eyes. 3) Find a church where your husband will feel like he fits in even if it means moving your children from a youth environment that they like. It WILL be worth it in the end. My husband never felt that was good enough for church until we found a contemporary church that embraced him without the self-righteousness. It juat clicked.

    My husband was saved about 3 years ago and his faith grows more and more every week.

    Fight the good fight. Finish the race. Keep the faith.


  2. Rookie Writer
    August 7, 2012 at 8:33 am #

    There are so many wives that need to read this post. I don’t know how many women I’ve said this to and just because it doesn’t feel right or it’s not something they want to do. They do the complete opposite. This is good.


    • peacefulwife
      August 7, 2012 at 10:10 am #

      Rookie Writer, Thanks so much for your comment. That is a HUGE problem for us as wives. The “without words” thing just FEELS WRONG to us, so we go ahead and disobey God because we believe our wisdom is higher. God definitely has reasons for His commands. Things go MUCH better when we obey Him. I appreciate your insights greatly!


  3. Faithful Wife_CG
    January 6, 2013 at 9:46 pm #

    I am struggling with this exact predicament now. We (my husband and I) have been separated off and on for more than 7 years. Neither one of us wants to divorce. I can’t explain to any of my friends why I keep fighting, I believe God wants me to stay. This article was very helpful to me and reiterates what I’ve been hearing for sometime, “be quiet.” Have I been blocking my blessing all this time with my mouth? I will pray 1 Pet 3:1-6 daily until I can listen to its message. Until it gets deep down in my spirit. Thank you.


    • peacefulwife
      January 18, 2013 at 6:53 am #

      Faithful Wife,

      Would you be interested in emailing with a wife who is in your situation, but has begun to practice respect and biblical submission over the past 6 months or so?

      I Peter 3:1-6 is SO POWERFUL! It works in ways we can’t begin to comprehend. But my husband told me that when I stopped talking about God and stopped the criticizing, lecturing, and negative words – it allowed him to begin to hear Gods’ voice. ANd then when I added praising him, trusting him to lead, putting my faith in him, building him up and positive words – he said it was like a megaphone for God’s voice.

      He was already a believer, but was not very close to God when I started this 4 years ago. But this is definitely the way to a man’s soul. IT is so counterintuitive to women!

      I am praying for you! Let me know how you are doing.


      • Faithful Wife_CG
        January 21, 2013 at 7:03 pm #

        Yes I would very much like to have someone to fellowship with. It has been very difficult over the last few weeks. It hard feeling unloved and knowing that we should not be separated. Please feel free to give out my email address. Thank you!


  4. Nicole Rivers
    March 14, 2014 at 9:27 am #

    Thank you so much. You don’t understand how much this means to me and the future of my family.


  5. reflectionsintheskye
    July 19, 2014 at 8:56 pm #

    I have been married for 9 months, and when we were dating we discussed the importance of marrying someone who shared our Christian faith. We agreed to fight for purity till marriage, although it was a fight. Now, my husband told me that he doubts Christianity. He is still looking for answers, but he feels like no one is there to hear his prayers. He said he is now Agnostic.

    I was shocked and scared. God gave me the grace to calmly and gently talk about it with my husband. He admitted he was afraid to talk to me because he thought it would hurt me. Right now I have faith that God will continue to draw my dearest’s heart, but the reality is it could take years. I am praying for patience and strength.

    I am disappointed that after getting to know each other intentionally in our dating relationship, we still ended up in a marriage unequally yoked. I really value the design of marriage in which the husband is the spiritual leader, but that is not an option right now.

    My husband is very knowledgeable about the Word of God, he just has not personally experienced or connected with the LOVE of God. I am doing my best to model Christ’s love and to use actions rather than words to reach out to Him. Over the past months, I’ve had irritable and depressive mood swings. I am beginning to see the enemy at work to destroy my testimony to my lover. I am trying to renew my Joy in Christ and my passion for His Word.

    I was almost relieved when my Love told me about his doubts, because my love for my husband may be the motivation I need to kick the dissatisfaction and lack of gratitude out of my life as I grow spiritually. I am seeking peace for the journey ahead.


    • Tabitha
      July 21, 2014 at 7:34 am #

      hi Reflectionsinthesky,
      You can still honor Gods design and follow the path of obedience and respect. In marriage people do not always go in the same pace. One can be doubtful the other full of faith.
      When your husband disconnects from God or is in doubt what you can do is follow the advice to show your husband respect. To win him withouth words. My experience is that preaching works against helping your husband find answers.
      My husband turned away although I do not think he stopped believing in God he does seem to deem it irrelevant.
      We do not talk much about faith and if we do I have to be careful not to come across with lots of certainty.
      I miss it we can not pray together or go to church but in the startt of our marriage I was the one in doubt.
      Hold on to your faith, grow as much as you can but let God handle your husband.
      I applaud you could hear him calmly and keep open the way for him to trust you and be able to voice his doubts, I think that is important if possible.
      Moodswings is difficult I have strughled often and long with depression and one way is to talk myselve through it by voicing that this will not last so hold on.
      A book that recently helped me a lot in finding certainty in my faith was the natural christian live from Watchman Nee.
      Be Blessed


    • peacefulwife
      July 23, 2014 at 8:02 pm #


      Thanks so much for sharing. How heartbreaking! I am so glad that you are trusting God. I Peter 3:1-6 is your greatest power to bless and encourage your husband and to influence him for Christ.

      check out
      “My Secret Idol”
      God Don’t Waste My Time!”

      And Nikka’s interview with her husband. I think it was the 3rd one that talks about his faith

      And “When I Shut Up, My Husband Heard God!

      Also, you can look at the “categories” on the right side of my home page and scroll through to “husband not a believer” and search posts about this topic.

      Praying for God to continue His good work in you and for Him to draw your husband to salvation!


  6. Faye Liquete
    September 24, 2014 at 8:24 pm #

    My husband of 18 years has questions about God. I am a believer and have just found a church where I belong. My husband will not go to this church because it is not Catholic, my husband does not practice his faith. I am not Catholic, never have been. He will say grace with me, and has never asked me not to go to church. I am concerned about his salvation.


  7. Lilou
    December 27, 2014 at 10:12 pm #

    Thanks so much for this post, I really needed to read this. I am struggling right now on how to respect my lovely unbelieving husband. In my heart I know that it is what The Lord wants and expect me to do but I am not capable of doing this. Even when I pray I am ending up making the same mistakes over and over… I really need some help! Please pray for me.


    • Peacefulwife
      December 28, 2014 at 7:51 am #

      True… you cannot do this on your own. It will absolutely take the power of God’s Spirit working in and through you.

      How is your walk with Christ going?

      Are you holding on to any bitterness, resentment, pride, self-righteousness, or other sin?

      Here are some posts to get you started, please search my home page for:

      – My Secret Idol
      – idol
      – idolatry
      – stages of this journey
      – ungodly woman
      – godly femininity
      – praying for husband so that God will hear
      – How to be filled with the Holy Spirit
      – discontentment
      – contentment
      – submission means holding things of this world loosely

      I’m right here if you need to talk some more!

      Much love,


  8. Celeste
    January 4, 2015 at 8:55 am #

    I have a question and the reason why I’m asking it in regards to one of the things you said; “not withhold your body from him sexually (it is a sin against God and our husbands when we do this – unless he is being unfaithful or you have some serious medical issues going on)”…

    So please tell me, how am I supposed to be intimate with a man who I no longer love as I once did, who refuses to shower and whose teeth are so covered in plaque that his breath constantly stinks? How am I supposed to obey those instructions when just being near him and his filthy hygiene makes me sick to my stomach? Does that scripture mentioned mean that God is going to banish me to hell just because I refuse to have sex with my husband because of this situation that I am in. Granted, I am not perfect and have issues of my own like trying to talk to him and many other things I’ve done that I’m not proud of, but I have repented and try to show him the love of God by not saying too much of anything, I sit and watch tv with him even though the stench is so powerful, I listen to him to what he has to say and I know that he is not depressed. So what am I supposed to do in this? Please tell me, if you or any other woman was in my position, would you be intimate with him?

    I’m still so very angry about this because it is ongoing. I am ill and do not have a job nor any income of my own, from the beginning he has belittled me by saying things to try and cause me to feel like I cannot survive in the working world, and whenever I spoke to him about getting out there and trying to earn a living with my limited abilities, he would (and still does) get angry and tell me that I’m not using his money to try and make my own. And then of course, the bad hygiene continues…so please. what am I supposed to do?????

    Angry, Depressed, Frustrated, Scared (of what God will do to me) and Unsure.


    • Peacefulwife
      January 4, 2015 at 1:43 pm #


      It is a pleasure to meet you!

      I have copied and saved the details of your situation – but I am not publishing them because I want to protect your privacy and your husband’s privacy.

      I do believe it is completely fine to say that you would love to be intimate with your husband but that you would greatly appreciate him showering a few times per week and brushing his teeth at times. It is fine – in my view – to wait until he cleans himself up to share intimacy. I can understand saying, “Honey, I would love to have sex with you. I’m all yours once you are cleaned up.” If he refuses to shower, you can say, “It makes me so sad that we can’t share intimacy together. It would mean so much to me if we could have sex again and enjoy cuddling/closeness again.”

      If he is not willing to do that – there is probably something major going on with him. At some point, did you become super controlling about this? Is he trying to make a point that you can’t tell him what to do? I know you say he is not depressed – but I wonder if he is depressed or has mental health issues? This is not normal behavior. Not in our culture, at least. What does he talk about? How is he doing at work? Does he have any other friends? Did his mom ever say anything about this to him?

      Apparently he was not like this before?

      What does he say he needs? How is he in the rest of the relationship? Is he severely addicted to porn? Does he have any other addictions? Does he want to be intimate with you?

      What was his parents’ marriage like?

      How was your marriage before you came to Christ?

      How is your walk with Christ going? I am really concerned about your mental, spiritual, and emotional health.

      Much love to you! And a BIG hug!


  9. Celeste
    January 17, 2015 at 9:16 am #

    Hi, nice to meet you too and thank you for responding and posting. In answer to your comments/questions:

    You said: “I do believe it is completely fine to say that you would love to be intimate with your husband but that you would greatly appreciate him showering a few times per week and brushing his teeth at times. It is fine – in my view – to wait until he cleans himself up to share intimacy. I can understand saying, “Honey, I would love to have sex with you. I’m all yours once you are cleaned up.” If he refuses to shower, you can say, “It makes me so sad that we can’t share intimacy together. It would mean so much to me if we could have sex again and enjoy cuddling/closeness again.”

    Peaceful wife, I tried that numerous times in several ways and nothing helped, he would turn me down and at times got annoyed, saying that I want a perfect person and that he never got complaints before. It would get so bad at times that we ended up arguing with him accusing me of starting trouble, that he was minding his own business and then I had to start. So I would end up walking away, feeling defeated, and crying.


    No one understands the pain I’m experiencing and I can’t make anyone understand. I’ve been to therapy, I’ve spoken to psychologists as well as psychiatrists. I’ve been on anti-depression meds as well as anti-anxiety meds…nothing I’m doing is working. I’ve got high blood pressure, gained weight, hair fell out and is not growing back and although I quit smoking back in 2003, I’m about two seconds away from going to the nearest liquor store and getting me a pack of cigarettes to try and calm what is left of me down. I’ve asked the Lord to take me home yet I’m afraid of dying for fear that my destination is hell.

    Because of the pain of the emotional and mental abuse, the wounds and scars inflicted on me by him, I don’t even want him to touch me, I literally shrink back from him and when he holds out his hands to hug me, I hold my breath and tense up. I’m sorry, I can’t help it the pain is too real and the impact of his actions against me has caused me to be afraid of closeness with him ever again, which is still ongoing with the stench. It got so bad for me inside my heart that I told him that it hurt to have sex again so I stay away from that – which mentally and emotionally just the thought of it does, and when we did that last time which was over ten years ago, I could not perform – so I faked my way through so as not to hurt his feelings.

    So again I ask you, what am I supposed to do??? HOW do I follow what Paul says when my husband has not made any effort to work WITH me to try to get our marriage back? I cannot force my feelings to change and like I said before, I feel like everything that went wrong with our marriage is my fault. Most importantly, how do I get to a place in my walk with Christ that is leaning towards a deeper relationship with Him when I’m afraid that He has rejected me too??? What am I supposed to do?!?!


    • Peacefulwife
      January 17, 2015 at 1:06 pm #


      My precious girl!!!!

      You had some serious flags that this man was not a good choice before marriage. I hate that you weren’t able to discern that then. 😦

      I am very concerned about his hygiene and mental health. There are some really serious issues there that you may need a godly Christian counselor to help you with.

      You are hung up on this one passage in I Corinthians – but there are countless other passages that it seems are escaping your notice?

      My greatest concern is your walk with Christ. Let’s make sure that is straight because until it is straight, you don’t have the power of God’s Spirit to be able to be a godly woman or wife.

      You are living in a prison – a spiritual prison. But Jesus has broken the shackles that bind you and the dungeon door is open. Jesus has opened it. Why are you staying stuck in that awful dungeon!?!?!

      How do you come to Christ? How are you saved?

      Let’s start there. 🙂

      We can walk this road together in baby steps, if you are up for it. 🙂

      There is forgiveness available to you. You don’t have to continue living in guilt or sin. Jesus can heal your soul completely. His blood is able to wash away your guilt – but I’m not sure you understand this? So I would love for you to explain your salvation to me – and then we can see how far back we need to go to get to the root of the issue.

      Much love to you!


      • Celeste
        February 8, 2015 at 7:57 am #

        I apologize that it has taken me so long to respond, had much to deal with.

        How did I come to Christ. Well my roots are in the church; my great-grandfather was a pastor and his daughter my Aunt Mable (they were Baptists) was also. He had a church in Caldwell NJ and every Sunday my dad would pack us up (he, mom, my sis, my brother and me) in his station wagon and drive us there. Services tended to be long at times but I did not mind, I loved being there.

        They had the children’s Sunday School in the basement where we would have Biblical coloring books and would color the pictures while being taught. I’d say that I was about three years old the first time I was introduced to the Holy Spirit. Aunt Mable would come downstairs to check on us, and one day that is vivid in my memory, she put me on her lap while I was coloring. I always “felt” something nice in the church, but it was different this time; what I did not understand then was that what I sensed coming through her was the Presence of the Lord, and I did not want to be away from Him.

        Now I was abused from the time I was about six or seven years old until before my mother passed on when I was sixteen, but before that started I was given the opportunity to know that Father is very real with what I experienced with my Aunt and what I witnessed each week at church and I never forgot it.

        Fast forward to when the horrors of the abuse started. My dad was an alcoholic and he and mom fought frequently over money that he drank up. Eventually she kicked him out and during that time my mother met a woman who would become our god-parent. I was still about three, maybe four years old and I remember the first time my mother brought us to this woman’s house. She had seven children and they were all sitting on the floor watching tv. Little did I know that that would be the beginning of the living nightmare that I would endure.

        I won’t go into too many details at this time as to the nature of the abuse that started (my plan is to write a book about it) except to say that it got so bad that I tried on numerous occasions to kill myself. We ended up moving in with this new family, and starting from around the age of six my mother, this woman and her live in boyfriend beat my sister and I. My brother by then was in the Army so he escaped seeing what we went through. I remember one particular beating in which I was stripped naked while my mother had the switches and the man had a belt. My god-mother pushed me down on the chair and with my behind exposed, she sat on my back – all two-hundred and fifty pounds of her – to keep me from running, while my mom and the man took turns beating my bare behind, my legs, ankles, feet and my hands because I tried to use them to cover my butt.

        Eventually my god-mother grabbed them and the beating seemed to last forever and I ended up peeing on myself. I screamed out in pain and cried and cried to near hysterics. The pain was horrible but finally they stopped. Then, my mother drew a bath for me and told me to get in it…it was straight hot water. In their minds if I sat in the hot water, the scars would heal faster and that way no one would notice when I took gym in school. But the water was too hot and I had open woulds from the beating so of course I screamed and started crying again. My mother got angry and started beating me again and told me to sit in the water and do not move and if she heard me cry, I was gonna get it again.

        So I forced myself to sit in that water while the pain from the wounds filtered through me, and I forced myself not to make a sound as the tears streamed down my face…

        Eventually by the time I was about eight or nine, we ended up moving into our own apartment but the abuse still continued with this woman becoming very controlling over my mother and our lives. I discovered that I loved to read so in order to try to escape the pain of the abuse, I would find books that my mom had and would read them. I became very fond of mysteries but I really connected to religious based books. When I was a little girl (around five years) I had a small Bible but for some reason which to this day I don’t understand, I started tearing the pages out of it, and got a spanking for doing that.

        After that I was never given another Bible so I never got the chance to read one fully until years later. Anyway my mother had a book titled “The Cross And The Switchblade” by the late Rev. David Wilkerson. I started reading it and was drawn to it that I could not put it down. I was particularly connected to the story in the book about Evangelist Nicky Cruz, and I realized that I found the connection that I needed. I loved what I read that took place when Nicky gave His heart to Christ, and so one day while I was reading the book (this was like my tenth time reading it), I started feeling a weird and urgent like sensation inside what felt like in my stomach area. I tried to ignore it, but the more I read the book, the more urgent it became. It was not unpleasant and it was like instinct that I knew that it was our Heavenly Father.

        I put the book down on the table and went into the room I shared with my sister, grabbed the picture of the depiction of Jesus in the garden praying, got down on my knees and asked the Holy Spirit to do for me what He did for Nicky Cruz. I had never prayed before by myself, I mean we said grace over the food and prayed the “now I lay me down to sleep…” prayer before we went to bed, but other than that, never. So that was my prayer to accept Jesus Christ into my heart, and I believed He heard me. From that point on I knew I wanted to live for Him, and I would pray to Him with my childish gibberish which maybe sounded silly, but I’m sure was music to His ears. However, the abuse continued and eventually by the time I turned thirteen, I ended up renouncing Him…

        I will continue to share with you at a later time but you asked me how I came to know Christ and I wanted to give you some background into my life before that as well.


        • Peacefulwife
          February 8, 2015 at 1:25 pm #


          Oh goodness! What a nightmare you lived as a girl!

          How I long for every child to be dearly loved and treated as precious and never, ever abused in any way.

          I’m so glad that you received Jesus as your Savior and Lord. No rush. Share as you are able to, my sweet sister. 🙂


  10. leah hylton
    February 2, 2015 at 1:45 pm #

    When my husband and I married he claimed to b a Christian, like me. But his lifestyle started to decline from living and acting like a Christian. My faith in Christ has remained the same. And growing. At times I feel disconnected and discontent in my marriage.


    • Peacefulwife
      February 3, 2015 at 9:51 am #


      You can grow in Christ and allow God to use you to help draw your husband to himself as you walk in obedience to God and in the power of His Spirit. I’m glad you are growing. Would you like to talk about what is going on?

      Much love to you!


  11. Megan
    April 16, 2015 at 3:06 am #

    God Bless you!,This is just what I needed to hear,so amazing how I found it just in time. I have been with my husband for 15 years (married for 13). We were both Catholic (not practicing at that) when we were married.Our son was born 10 days later….we,did not start the correct way. After a year I was ready to leave him. We separated. I visited my “believing” Aunt I haven’t seen in years. When I was young she was a mean drug addict. Before I went to visit her,I knew she was a “Jesus Freak” LOL bless her heart, anyways when I stayed with her,I was in shock how she had became this wonderful Godly women…I had to have what her and her husband had…joy and peace. I became saved…be cause of this the Lord gave me strength to stay with my pot smoking husband. Few,months later he quit marijuana and was saved himself! It was wonderful we went to Church everything was great. I had to go stay with my parents to help them( a decision I regret to,this day)When I came back he was smoking weed again and has not stopped for the last 8 year’s. I have fallen away from the Lord last few years…I had let my fire go out 😔,I’m trying to get back especially for my children,,I havnot been the godly mother they deserve,I get so angry. I have been struggling to have respect for my husband,his pot smoking makes me so mad. I know I’m not close to perfect at all and should not judge. So when my husband does not smoke his marijuana he is mean and has no patience .He is acts like a jerk and does not care if he hurts me. Tonight he blew off our 13 year olds and my Dad’s birthday for watching a soccer game.I said to him(wish I kept my,mouth shut) all the things Dad has done for us and this is h I’m not sure where it goesow you Treat him? Well of course that didn’t help any. He did show up before cake and then went back home after(finish watching soccer buy more beer,my Dad is going on his 30 day sober himself.) I actually entertaintained the idea of leaving him because of the marijuana. But that’s not right and I’m not perfect and need to work on my relationship with with Jesus also. I realize now I have to mend my relationship with Jesus and then be a good wife to my husband…right? Thank you so much please pray for us.


  12. Steph
    July 12, 2015 at 11:09 pm #

    I wish I could say this helped.
    But I just feel so empty and down about being in this situation for 4 years now…I dont understand how any women can go so long with feeling un happy in a marriage where your husband is a non believer. I feel like we have no common interest anymore ..except for our children. I have prayed..i have nagged…i have learned to “be quiet” ..i have given it to God..and I just feel done. I dont know what to do..I dont personally know any Godly woman I can trust to talk about my situation with. I have felt persecuted by my own husband..I have felt Loved out of pity.. he doesnt mistreat me or anything..hes just worldley and sometimes I feel like he wishes I was who I used to be..i feel like maybe he would just be happier with another person…someone who could except him the way he is..and the same w me…is that wrong?


    • Peacefulwife
      July 13, 2015 at 7:20 am #


      Such a painful situation!

      How is your walk with Christ going, my precious sister?

      There are many, many wives in your shoes here. A number of them have written posts for me. In the “categories” section on the right column of my home page, you can look under categories and find things about respecting unbelieving husbands and winning them “without a word.”

      One post that may be a blessing is “My Secret Idol.”

      I would also encourage you to search my home page for:
      – the idol of happiness
      – how to make your husband an idol
      – contentment
      – peace
      – security
      – how to be filled with the Holy Spirit

      There is every reason for hope in Jesus, my sister! Please look to Him and abide in Him!!

      Let me know what God is speaking to you.

      Much love!


  13. Teresa
    January 8, 2016 at 7:51 pm #

    I just wanted to say thank you for this article!! My husband and I have been married for 3 years and he is not a believer. I hate to say it, but I have fallen into the trap of being discontented with my situation, and wishing things were different and I’m so ashamed of my failure to show my husband the respect and love God intended. This article truly spoke God’s word into my heart. I will be reading these verses often and praying for God to lead me. Again thank you for allowing the Holy Spirit to speak through you, you have blessed me beyond words.


    • Peacefulwife
      January 9, 2016 at 10:19 pm #


      You are most welcome. It is easy to feel like if a husband would JUST accept Christ – everything would be so much better! And, I mean – it would! But – sometimes we can lose sight of Christ in our pursuit of our husbands’ salvation. That is a tough situation. Obviously God wants everyone to come to Christ. It can be very tempting to want to push and rush things – and inadvertently sabotage God’s voice in our husbands’ lives.

      I’m so glad that this was a blessing! 🙂 I praise God for what He is doing in your life!

      Oh, check out this post, too – My Secret Idol.


  14. Melissa
    January 12, 2016 at 12:33 pm #

    I was saved as a teenager and fallen away but not I recommitted my life to the Lord and its like my eyes have opened for the first time I want to learn more and do right in Gods eyes I refuse to be weak and let the devil pull me away again my husband is an unbeliever well one minute he says he believes in God the next minute he calls God myth he throws all my mistakes and sins in my face calling me a Bible thumper that does wrong he’s constantly puts down my faith and Christians it upset me so much I get so defensive so glad for this article I’ve been going about it the wrong way thank you o invite all insite and wisdom on this subject its been such a challenge I know he sees me changing and he doesn’t want me to change and doesn’t understand why I feel so strongly about my faith which to him he sees as a fake thing that’s a waste of energy and time so now my mouth will be shut and I will show with action please pray for me and my husband


  15. D
    January 23, 2016 at 11:40 am #

    Dear April please advice me. My husband and I haven’t had sex in almost a year. I have been very sad about it, he has said he’s not in the mood when I asked him about it. I suspect he is using porn – I have seen a link on our tablet but he hides his Internet history so I don’t have concrete evidence. We have a 14 month old daughter. He says he has been stressed. Things have been tough financially for a long while . Since we have been married I have had 2 major psychotic episodes but I thank God that I am stabilised and on medication. I had also taken 2 years off medical school. I really want to return but my university is far away and my husband doesn’t want to move there. He says we can’t afford it. I would be able to live with my mum who lives there and have financial help from my parents who want me to complete medical school. I have been a stay at home mum for about a year and a half and I haven’t been satisfied. I have a low paid part time job but we can’t always afford for my transport money for work so I’ve mostly been at home. I’ve been bored at home. We have been behind on our rent for a long while now. Do you think I can share all this with my best friend, she isnt married yet, or with my younger sister, or with a mutual married friend of ours who is close to the family? Out of those three ladies are my issues too personal to share? I really want to talk to somebody, I am 24 years old. Please help


    • Peacefulwife
      January 23, 2016 at 7:27 pm #


      Goodness, things are very stressful right now! What does your husband say he needs right now? Can you ask him how you can most support him?

      There are plenty of ways to be fulfilled even if you can’t go to medical school. Being home does not have to mean being bored or wasting your life. 🙂

      How is your walk with Christ going? What do you believe God wants to do in your life and marriage and family during this trial?

      Where do you believe your worth as a person and woman comes from?

      What can you do to help financially – as far as cutting spending, for example?

      Please check out for reaources for wives whose husbands are involved in porn. You may also search my home page for “porn” for some posts that may be helpful.

      If you need counseling, I would suggest talking here or going to Focus on the Family’s site – they offer a counseling service for free.

      Do you have a godly wife mentor you trust that is not from your family whom you could pray with and who could walk beside you on this road?

      Much love to you!


  16. Tan watson
    March 20, 2016 at 1:18 am #

    Hi my name is Tan and I am a believer and my husband is not.

    I have been married to my husband for 11yrs, saved for 7.

    I am truly great for you passage as I am struggling to respect my husband and I push him away from God and myself.


    • Peacefulwife
      March 20, 2016 at 2:52 pm #


      It is so wonderful to meet you! I praise God that Christ has brought you to Himself! 🙂 So thankful this was a blessing to you. I’m here if you want to talk some more, my precious sister. Praying for you to grow abundantly in your faith in Christ and for you to have the Spirit’s wisdom, discernment and power to be a blessing to your husband. I pray God will draw your husband to Himself by His Spirit in His timing for His greatest glory!


      • Anoyn
        April 21, 2016 at 2:07 am #

        Thank you for this post. So many things I needed to know.



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