Usually, during the school year, I am able to spend 30+ hours per week on online ministry – writing posts for both of my blogs, responding to comments, making Youtube videos, and sharing on Facebook. When my children are home for the summer, things get a bit more challenging ministry-wise. I don’t want to spend 30 hours per week online when I can spend time with them making memories and doing things together. This particular summer, we have had some staffing issues at the pharmacy where I work. At this point, it looks like I may be needed more at work throughout the whole summer, maybe even longer. I don’t know for sure yet. This has been a blessing to Greg that I have been able to work so much more in the pharmacy. I am thankful for that and thankful for my job. I am torn because I don’t want to neglect y’all in any way – and yet, I have to make some changes, at least for the summer. I can’t do everything I really want to do.
Instead of having about 30 hours or so per week for ministry, I am going to have to adjust my expectations for the next 2 months, at least, that I will probably have about 10 hours per week.
Would you please join with me in praying as I seek to do only what God desires me to do above all else?
You are so very good. You alone have all wisdom. You know the plans You have for each of us. You are able to change our circumstances and direct our steps. You have the wisdom we need for every aspect of our lives. You know my heart – how I want to be in the very center of Your will. I want my priorities to align with Yours no matter what. I want to be sure I am spending much time with You in fervent prayer and in Your Word. I want to use my time wisely and make the most of the time I have with our children. I want to use my time wisely in ministry and I long to be available for You to use me however You desire to here. You know the deep sadness I feel when I think about not being able to be as available in ministry. I want to use my time wisely at work to bless and minister to those You ordain to cross my path there. More than my will, I long for Your will.
I lay everything out before You, Lord. I give You all of myself and all of my time and abilities. I will not cling to anything but Christ. Show me the way You desire me to go. Make it clear to Greg and to me the path You have for me. If You desire me to be at work more, I want to be where You want me to be. If You desire me to minister more, I want to be there. If You desire me to be with my children more, I want to be there. Help me to hear Your voice clearly as I wrestle with balancing all of these very good things in a way that brings You delight and honor. Direct my steps.
I also have another book to write that is due December 1st. Help me manage my time wisely so that I am able to hear Your voice and write Your message in that book and give it the time it needs, as well. I hope to really get going on it again when school starts back but not my will, but Your will be done. Please give me Your Spirit’s power, Your words, Your truth, Your love, and the time I need to allow You to pour through me into that work, as well, for Your glory.
I seek the good of my husband, our children, my boss/coworkers/patients, and those to whom I minister online. I know that You are able to lead me in the way that will ultimately be best for all involved and that will bring You the most glory. I pray that You might greatly increase and I might greatly decrease. I lay my dreams, desires, and plans down. I will wait patiently on You to show me Your way. Let me spend my time doing exactly what You want me to do in every area of my life.
Right now, I expect that I will need to drop back to one post per week for the rest of the summer. I will also have to adjust how often I post on http://www.peacefulsinglegirl.com, Facebook, my closed Facebook prayer group, and my Youtube channel, “April Cassidy.”
If you have been on this journey for awhile and you feel led by God’s Spirit, please reach out to those who are struggling and hurting in the comments. I will need some extra hands on deck to help me minister. I really don’t even have to say this – because y’all already do such an amazing job!! I am beyond grateful for the amazing readers God has provided here. You bless me tremendously! I want to thank so many of you for the way you all reach out to others and the way you extend love, support, prayer, encouragement, and the way you share the treasures God has given you in the times of fiery trials in your lives.
People are welcome to comment. 🙂 I appreciate your patience, though, as I may not be able to respond as quickly as I have in the past.
One good thing about these time constraints is that I pray it will help us all to be sure we are depending primarily on God, not on any person. Ultimately Christ is what we all need so desperately. What a blessing that He allows us to share this road together. I’m honored to get to be here!
Be greatly glorified in each of our lives. Let us be in the very center of Your perfect will doing exactly what You desire us to do each moment of every day!